After Jesus, Paul is most definitely the main protagonist of the New Testament. Today we are still in awe of his leadership, his apostolic gifting and his pastoral insights. He was able to mix it with the best of the Rabbis and to also converse and debate with the leading Hellenic thinkers. He planted churches, healed the sick, preached the gospel throughout the Roman world and generally created a magnificently holy ruckus where ever he went.
Yet in 2nd Corinthians he lets us in on an intriguing element of his life. Paul writes,
“I will not boast about myself, except about my weaknesses. Even if I should choose to boast, I would not be a fool, because I would be speaking the truth. But I refrain, so no one will think more of me than is warranted by what I do or say.
To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak then I am strong.”,
What I find fascinating is that here we have the central personality of the early Church, saying that his prayers to be released of from his ‘thorn in his flesh’, where unanswered. We must asked where was his faith? Did he not believe that Jesus had come to offer us life in fullness? Paul’s ongoing struggle with the ‘thorn in his flesh’ seems to be in direct contrast to the suffering-less version of the Christian life preached in many churches today.
Although many have speculated on what Paul’s thorn could have been no one knows. I like this, I think that it means that we can all identify in our life a thorn. It could be anything. A temptation, a past hurt, a medical condition, a relational issue, an addiction, a character flaw. All of us live with thorns. Some of us will be miracuoulsy healed from these thorns, but most of us like Paul will struggle with them for the rest of our lives. Therefore it is essential that we learn how to live with our thorns. Here are some pointers.
- Be Honest in identifying what your thorn or thorns are.
- Find someone who will keep you accountable in regards to your ‘thorn/s’. Make sure that they are someone who will ask you the hard questions. Consider too that you might need to seek professional help.
- Understand your warning signs. Like a mechanic who can work out what is wrong with a car by simply listening to the engine. Get to know your engine and when things are moving into dangerous territory.
- Pray for healing or deliverance from your thorn. But if God does not take it away, make a decision to live victoriously with your thorn. A person who suffers from depression can live with that condition in a victorious or defeated state. Spend some time picturing what victory looks like for you with your thorn.
- Use your thorn as a gift to others. Note Paul says that he was given his thorn in order to stop him from being conceited. Paul’s thorn made him a more humble, and gracious person. Thus his battle to live with his thorn became not just a ministry to himself but to others.
- Recognize that your battle with your thorn is the foundry for most of your spiritual growth. Your success in this struggle with be crucial not just to yourself in this life but those around you.
- Lastly beware the leader who is unaware of his or her thorns. The darkest moments in the life of the church are almost always caused by leaders who are either naive to or unwillingly to seriously confront the thorns in their lives. If you find yourself under a leader like this run away. I am not using hyperbole, seriously get the heck out of there.